What do you do when all the threats are gone? The process is not linear nor is is predictable.
In the week since I learned by abuser died I’ve experienced relief, confusion, sadness, hope, loss, joy, and anger. Often all at the same time. It’s been a roller coaster ride for sure. The most important change is the that of my hyper-vigilance. I’ll never again have to worry that he can harm another person again. Learning to live without the fear, well, that’s going to take a little bit more time.