Yo! It’s a yo-yo
This is a very raw (non-edited) vlog about food, weight, and trauma.
Welcome to 2020!
Is it just for hindsight? I don’t think so. This is going to be the start of a new era of growth and happiness.
Brain Weasels
Cute & Deadly This is what happens when you lose control of how your brain functions.
A New Chapter
What do you do when all the threats are gone? The process is not linear nor is is predictable.
Freedom Day 2020
It’s been 28 years since I was struck in violence. What does that really mean?
Careful What You Wish For
Words have ripple effects in the Universe. What happens when you wish for something and comes true?
Milestone or Millstone?
When does the pain of the past become more of a milestone and not millstone?
Being a Survivor & COVID-19
Sheltering in place or being in forced locked-down can be a trigger.
Not All Sunshine & Rainbows
The creep has another new attorney trying to overturn the conviction in NOLA.
My nerves cannot handle this on top of everything else in my life right now.
Perspective is Everything
Losing over 55 pounds of body armor has some interesting ways of manifesting in how I feel about myself.
When the Past Meets the Present
Life happens and we often end up in places we never expected to find ourselves. While attending an Educational Summit, I had time to reflect on where I’ve come from, where I am, and where I would like to go.
The Enchanted Drive
The Rio Grande Gorge New Mexico is the “Land of Enchantment” and as I prepared for the solo drive I wondered if there would be hidden triggers. There were and a few were difficult but for the most part, the trip did exactly what I hoped it would do…overwrite the past memories of fear and […]
Feeling Lost is Okay
Sometimes you just need time to let things settle and move around in your brain. The past month of has been one of ‘those’ months where all motivation was gone and then, like magic, it came back in many ways.
Victim, Survivor, or Something Else?
So often people want to label us as something that may or may not apply. Far too many of us that have suffered at the hands of our abusers fall into what has the unfortunate label of “victim mentality.” Some of us fight so hard against that label that we become militant survivors. Some slip […]
Time is NOT Linear
“Time, time, timeSee what’s become of meWhile I looked aroundFor my possibilitiesI was so hard to please” Songwriter: Paul SimonA Hazy Shade of Winter lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group What does the passage of time mean as a survivor? One minute you’re sitting with friends and family have a great time and then, out […]
One Step Forward, A Landslide Back
The journey of healing is not linear. This discusses how a single span of ten days managed to trigger me and how through those triggers (and an amazing therapist) I found the tools necessary to keep moving forward.
It’s Story Time
Almost every survivor I’ve met has asked themselves at some point along their journey, “Was I really abused? Do I belong here?” The here is a support group for survivors.
“Look for the Helpers”
I have never been a fan of Mr. Rogers but he shared something important back in 1986 or so. He would tell the story of how his mother helped him feel safe growing up. “Always look for the helpers,” she’d tell me. “There’s always someone who is trying to help.” It wasn’t until I had […]
Take Back the Night Phoenix
A transformative night for me and I suspect for many of the attendees as well. There’s so much to share about this event. I’ll begin with some images. They do not do justice the energy that crackled throughout the park itself. I had hoped to have a high-quality video of my speaking but that didn’t […]