A New Chapter
What do you do when all the threats are gone? The process is not linear nor is is predictable.
Freedom Day 2020
It’s been 28 years since I was struck in violence. What does that really mean?
Careful What You Wish For
Words have ripple effects in the Universe. What happens when you wish for something and comes true?
Milestone or Millstone?
When does the pain of the past become more of a milestone and not millstone?
The Enchanted Drive
The Rio Grande Gorge New Mexico is the “Land of Enchantment” and as I prepared for the solo drive I wondered if there would be hidden triggers. There were and a few were difficult but for the most part, the trip did exactly what I hoped it would do…overwrite the past memories of fear and […]
Feeling Lost is Okay
Sometimes you just need time to let things settle and move around in your brain. The past month of has been one of ‘those’ months where all motivation was gone and then, like magic, it came back in many ways.
Brain Weasels
Cute & Deadly This is what happens when you lose control of how your brain functions.
Victim, Survivor, or Something Else?
So often people want to label us as something that may or may not apply. Far too many of us that have suffered at the hands of our abusers fall into what has the unfortunate label of “victim mentality.” Some of us fight so hard against that label that we become militant survivors. Some slip […]
One Step Forward, A Landslide Back
The journey of healing is not linear. This discusses how a single span of ten days managed to trigger me and how through those triggers (and an amazing therapist) I found the tools necessary to keep moving forward.
It’s Story Time
Almost every survivor I’ve met has asked themselves at some point along their journey, “Was I really abused? Do I belong here?” The here is a support group for survivors.
“Look for the Helpers”
I have never been a fan of Mr. Rogers but he shared something important back in 1986 or so. He would tell the story of how his mother helped him feel safe growing up. “Always look for the helpers,” she’d tell me. “There’s always someone who is trying to help.” It wasn’t until I had […]
An Anniversary of Sorts
If you’re not familiar with the story that broke in NOLA you can view it here.
Learning Forgiveness & Trust
It’s not that I did anything “wrong” but learning to stop the old tapes of being told I was worthless (“you’re fat, ugly, and stupid”) takes time. I had to learn to forgive myself for not always being present as a mother, a friend, a teacher, or as a Priestess. I had to learn to […]
It’s the Little Things
“Potentially evil. Potentially good, too, I suppose. Just this huge powerful potentiality waiting to be shaped.” ― Neil Gaiman, Good Omens: The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of Agnes Nutter, Witch
Ancient History
Every story needs some background. A place to put things into context. To accomplish this, I’m relying on posts from a failed blog attempt some years ago. Bear with me as I try to put some of the mosaics of my life in order to help make the forward movement make sense: It didn’t start […]